If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?
Never thought things would change, hold me tight
Please don't say again that you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violent since you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If I had told you
You would've listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never went away

It would never have been all the same
All our time what have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
Had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments keep me warm
When you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

- "Bittersweet" by Within Temptation

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siiiiiiiigh.

SO. ^_^

There's a bit of a story behind this...some of you will know how crappy I'd been feeling for a while - mostly to do with an annoying itch I have concerning being abandoned. Remember the whole journal with the balloons? XD BLAH that one.

Everyone's words really touched me deep down... and I did listen and it encouraged me. But then...something kinda happened. Like, I took it all in...but began thinking about it. A LOT. Like (and this is going to sound so morbid XD) friendships until death. Love until death. LIFE until death.

I never got upset thinking about this. Just....a little distant as I hadn't thought about things like this for a while. I felt a bit distant from myself also...like....I WASN'T myself at that moment....

....it's a bit complicated to write down, unfortunately. ^^

But this afternoon on my way home, I was listening to my ipod and THIS song (in the description) came up. And I listened to it. I remember it so well as Devil introduced me to it, saying it was one of her favourite WT songs and I never really gave it a proper chance until now.

I was so embarrassed when I felt like CRYING in the street at the lyrics XDDD! LMAO pathetic I is XD....the lyrics just seemed to be opening a door....like all of the kind words, hugs, love and friendship people and all of you gave me were showing me that these lyrics where what my heart was truly trying to say. :3

Thank you Devil, for showing me that song. I'll be forever grateful.

Thank you my Harpy......for waiting for me and my heart.

I also throw out a huge thanks as always to my shining Waywards....you guys make me feel so happy to be alive.

Thank you to all out there who know me, love me, and call me a friend. No matter where you live or who you are. These lyrics are for all of you.

*ties balloon to wrist*

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Call me soppy? Fine. 8) But I'm smiling so neh at you XD *pulls eyelid*

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Naruto is me

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