....all we can do is pick it back up again, right? XDD

It's been a pretty weird couple of months --some of you might have noticed that I've not been very active on here at all recently. Seriously though, no-one's fault...just a load of real life stuff bombarded me like no other and I'm finally picking myself up again. ^^

Soooo of course because I procrastinated with my hurt feelings I have ONCE AGAIN a HORDE of messages, deviations and the like which I swear are TAUNTING me to comment on and comment back...*chest heaves*

HAHAHA, and I swore I'd never get myself into this mess again....fail.

Some of you might know what's been happening with me (especially since it might CONCERN some of you XD), or have dragged it out of me on MSN or something XD Just to let you all know things are definitely getting better and everyone around me is smiling again.

And by all means, I know this probably won't make a hell of a lot of sense to some of you....*shuffles feet* ...but some of my friends have had a rougher time than me, so I'm just so damn grateful that I could be there to help, even a little. ^^ I try to do all I can...I know I sometimes appear as if I can't do much but I'll try UNTIL I can't. ^_^

The Manchester meet I went to last week was fun....I saw so many people and strengthened bonds with some of you....I never thought I'd find that sort of quick attachment to people so quickly again --it gives me hope, YOU ALL GIVE ME HOPE! XDDDD

, , , , , and .....you guys....;_____;

I swear if it wasn't for all of you in the last few months I don't know what I'd do. I know I seem a bit broken and untrusting at the moment with the people I'm with, but please please PLEASE give me time to open up completely once more and be whole again....I feel like you guys are making me whole and I know I belong in this group with all of you....even if I haven't met some of you long this feeling of trust is super strong and I can't describe it.....

*is starting to get a bit emotional now*

......if none of this makes much sense, no worries. XD My head's a bit kerfuffled at the moment; getting my barings again XD

Yeah, yeah, I may seem/sound a tad wussy writing that, but to be honest I don't care. I have something special that I can hold onto and people to share these moments with and I cherish you guys because you're some of the few people in the world that truly understand me the most. You're always there for me and are all so honest with me....you have no idea how much I care for you all for being that.

.....Also another big thank you to everyone else who spoke to me (and Devil especially) in the last couple of months --all of you online and on here who are always willing to give a listen, to all of you who sent us virtual hugs, to all of you who gave advice, to all of you who have cared. Thank you.

Thank you DA friends, thank you fellow cosplay groups, thank you friends who I don't see very much, THANK YOU ALL!

......

......OH, and to all of you British peeps

I will be kicking it up with a huge smile on my face at J-culture con next month! COSPLAAAAYING.....! ....I do not know yet. XD But when I find out, I will tell all XD

Hope to see some of you thereeee~ <3

P.S I love you Wayward-sweets.....NEVER FORGET THAT!





TO DO LIST

- : 10K Kiriban Prize (Video - Day in my life)
- : 10K Kiriban Runner-Up Prize (Photo - Naruto & Sora grinning contest)
- : 20K Kiriban Prize (Picture - ANYTHING!)
- : 20K Kiriban Runner-Up Prize (Photo - Me and ~DevilChestnut involving faggotry XD)
- : 20K Kiriban Runner-Up Prize (Photo - Cosplay experiment...bit of a secret )
- : 20K Kiriban Runner-Up Prize (Photo - Gakuen Den Cosplay involving noodles)

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